We have gone through a LOT in the last 12 months. I have learned a lot. How I can do better and be better (a life long lesson) and many other things. Here are some of the preparatory experiences I had to help me get to this place. **Warning** if offended easily- skip this post.
April- Son collapsed during basketball practice. Raced to the ER. Husband in Texas. They had to restart his heart. ER doc told him to return to normal activity (oops). Had heart surgery in May. Fixed the problem as much as it can be fixed.
August- T boned by a car running a red light while being distracted*. Totaled our big Suburban like car. Hurt a lot...various injuries, surgery for a family member in the car in the near future. Family traumatized and my sweet 15yo doesn't want to drive...ever.
October- diagnosed with cancer (me). Shocked, sad, numb. Hopeful and not angry at God. Surgery to remove the piece on my face (nice scar in the middle of my forehead (or will be a scar when it heals).
I can't think of what else has happened. I know there has been some other stuff...but frankly these our the top three in the last six months. It's made me realize who my true friends are and who they aren't. Thank you for reaching out true friends when life got hard...and I feel sad for those who were wolves in sheep clothing. I'm Shocked frankly that people can't put aside whatever their stuff is and just be kind human beings. I guess that's asking too much of some. That is what can truly make us great; setting ourselves aside for others.
I have learned that no matter how well you prepare yourself, things always hit you upside the head when you least expect it. I've learned that the precious moments with my babies and kissing their faces (no matter how old) are moments I will treasure forever. I've learned that I don't care if my house is clean or not. I love it clean, but it doesn't make or break who I am. I've learned I know who I am and while I know that is an eternal process, I can say with confidence that I know a lot about myself and I like me. I have learned that caring about other people's stuff (negatively anyway) is a waste of my energy, spirit, and health. I've learned that our time on this earth is just a speck. I've learned that it takes far less energy to love than to hate.
I am so thankful for my belief. I believe I have a Father in Heaven who loves me and is aware of Janine. I have a Savior who knows me better than I know myself and knows every single pain, disappointment, and heartache I go through. I know that my family will continue past this life if I try to live my best life. To learn more about what I believe and what keeps me from giving up...click here.
This post has nothing to do with manners. It's just a bit more about me. I apologize if it comes across selfish. I love what I do and it is never work because I love it. Thank you for making my "job" so easy.
My two cents.
*texting? No skid marks....
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